I consider myself a fighter. And I’ve recently become inspired – by other bloggers! These individuals are amazing! They are all focused on nutritional and physical goals, and are a bit like me.

Since college, I have struggled with bulimia. I cannot pinpoint exactly when my struggle began, but I remember thinking “That was the worst meal I’ve ever eaten.” and knew that purging would be the easiest way to correct my mistake. I spiraled downward from that point, always justifying my poor eating habits by “fixing” it later. I compensated with more time at the gym and became obsessed with eating healthier foods when I was around my friends and family. Meanwhile, I was secretly overindulging – even with healthy foods – and purging.  When I started, I was at my highest weight at 160 lbs.  At 5’7″, I was by no means seriously overweight, but I was definitely lacking muscle tone, endurance and heart health.  More importantly, I was extremely uncomfortable in my own skin.

Here I am in 2003 with Steve, visiting his family in Hawaii:

Fast forward 6 years and I occasionally take a few steps back, but with the help of my husband (My, how we’ve changed!)

Hubby & I in 2008:

my close friends, Oxygen magazine (my bible) and some other bloggers, I am making gradual steps forward.

I intend to move my own blog in a new direction – a documentation of my new, fit lifestyle and my nutritional choices. I hope that it serves to motivate me to always move in the forward direction.


12 Responses to “Why a food fight?”

  1. 01/14/2010 at 3:59 PM

    Hi Heidi! I just came across your blog looking through Janetha’s comments. Your story is very inspiring, and you look fantastic! I have never had an experience to this extent of an ED, but I can definitely understand some of what you went through. Love your story and will be looking forward to reading more.

    You’re so pretty!

  2. 01/28/2010 at 7:20 AM

    Thanks for sharing your story – glad to see thing are going in the right direction!

  3. 02/08/2010 at 2:08 PM

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. I just stumbled upon your blog and I am happy to see that you are taking the steps toward a healthy lifestyle. This blogging community offers amazing support. Good luck! xoxo

  4. 03/16/2010 at 11:50 PM

    I just came across your blog through Janetha’s comment section. Congratulations for keeping up the good fight!

  5. 04/03/2010 at 12:45 PM

    I just found your blog and was so glad to come across it. I read many food blogs and even though many food bloggers have some sort of food “issue” I have only read a couple that talk about binging and purging. I have struggled with both anorexia and bulimia for the last 12 years, being in and out of recovery. I want to stay on the recovery track but it is still a struggle. I will be adding you to my blogroll. Keep on fighting!!!

  6. 04/03/2010 at 8:13 PM

    How did you “cure” the mental aspect of bulimia? I’ve never been bulimic but I have my own food issues (the biggest is immediate food guilt and regret). I struggled with restricting my dieting drastically to correct back food choices. I eventually had to stop weighing myself. I was getting so obsessed with the scale. I weigh myself once a month only. But even making that small change hasn’t helped me with my “food guilt.”

  7. 8 hayleycepeda
    04/07/2010 at 12:35 PM

    I found your blog through “Famished to Fantastic” and I’m so glad I did. I’ve struggled with some kind of food issue for a really long time now, but only recently has it evolved into bulimia. To make matters worse, I’m 4 months pregnant I’ve done the bingeing thing for a long time, but the purging is something new and very scary. Blogs like yours and Brooke’s give me hope that I can and will get through this. Out of curiosity, did you ever do therapy or anything similar to overcome it? Congratulations on your success and thank you so much for putting your story out there. I’m very grateful!

  8. 05/09/2010 at 5:34 AM

    hey girl!
    i love the idea behind your blog!

    never stop fighting 🙂
    ps – where in va are you? i’m a richmond girl.
    – rebekah

  9. 12 Maryanne
    03/03/2011 at 3:27 PM

    Keep up the good work! I love your healthy recipes.

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Hi Ya’ll!

Hiya! I'm Heidi, a 28-year-old "retired" student living in Virginia. I am a newlywed and currently on the hunt for a full-time job that will use either my Biology or Secondary Education degree. In the meantime, I work in retail and at an event venue part-time. When I'm not working, I love to kill hours at the gym, scrapbook, and act as a domesticated diva to keep my hubby happy!


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